I have quit this journal. My new journal is at the folowing web site:

http://www.woohu.com/~BabiGurl69

I write in there daily. Please visit it and leave coments.

Love,

Brianna

Hullo Everyone!

            Today there really isn’t much to talk about since I stayed home all day.  This morning I woke up ready to about die I wasn’t feeling so good. So I take my shower and put my hair up as usual. Go down stairs have my breakfast of Orange Gatorade and a banana. So I start feeling worse. I sit on my bed for about a half an hour. At this point I want to kill my self. So I walk into my Daddy’s room crying my eyes out cause I’m so tired and my whole body is aching. He tells me I don’t have to go to school hugs me and tells me to go to bed. So I wake up at 3:45 p.m.  ( I went to sleep at about 6:00 am.) I’m better.

            I found out I get to rest Friday because I don’t have to go to Ocala for the game.  I’m so happy. Lopez is going to die anyways. Hopefully they won’t but most likely they will.  Oh well.

            Well I got to go and finish typing up invitations. I’ll post later!!! Love you al!!!

~*~ BrIaNnA ~*~

Saturday, August  23^rd, 2003

Good Morning!!!

            Well I just woke up because someone called me to ask me how the movie was and tell me how much they love Lindsey. I think I am going to kill him Wednesday. Oh well. Ok one no one go see my boss’s daughter it sucked. (Well it didn’t suck for me tee-hee-hee *wink*) I had quiet a bit of fun actually. Ok but the movie was so dumb and stupid it was sorda funny.

After the movie we all went down to the beach to hang out. That was a lot of fun. Pat had fun “Spotting” Lol then Livi hit him that was quiet funny. Rocky and I and Kaity n Nick had our couple time. I’m not telling details though *wink* that’s for me and Rocky to know. Lol.

I’m happy me and Nat made up. But the other people. You were once close to me no longer you are to me. You say I’m your best friend and I’m not. Secrets and lies you are telling \to everyone. Only I and my true friends know you are lying. Therefore it dose not affect me. I am the better person. You can keep it up but ‘member. The cream ALWAYS rises to the top.  It is just a matter of time.

Well… I’m done for this entry really. Just want to say I had a lot of fun last night. And hope it goes on next weekend to! Tee-hee-hee

Talk to you all later!!!

~*~ BrEeZy BaBi ~*~

Bonjour!!! Salut!!!

            Well today was a bit better. But I am so.. I don’t know I always feel wired. I know I’m starting high school but people are getting mad at me for not hanging with them anymore as they say. I have invited those people everywhere and they never invite me anywhere. They don’t want me dating Rocky because they don’t know him. I really don’t care. I like him a whole lot and I am not breaking up with him. It’s ridiculous. I’m sick of people trying to walk all over me. And another thing… I’m sick of being called ugly by people. No one believes me but a lot of people call me ugly and fat… If anyone wonders why I always say I’m not… it’s because people tell it to my face… and tell me I am fat. I’m sick of it… And I believe it to. I look at the scale and I’m 100 pounds. I hate it… I look in the mirror and hate the reflection. No one knows how much it hurts. I look at all these people at school and they are so pretty. I hate them so much! (Not really just envy them tremendously) Ok yesterday (even though it was kind of disgusting and perverted) it felt really good that this group of the football players with Greg were waving at me and calling my name to look at them and stuff.  I mean yea it feels good… but I would never flirt or go with them because I like Rocky to much and I seriously don’t want to break up so don’t go thinking about that ok people?! Lol but I mean it feels good to have people say hey to you and to have friends on the football team and stuff. (Even though we suck) Oh well I’m just rambling. So I will stop because I’m taking up to much time for you to read. So I will post again tomorrow! Sign my guest book and put w/e u want to about my entry.

~*~ Brianna Marie Walker ~*~

P.S.

MY friend called me Amos today from the play/movie Chicago. Didn’t know what she meant but it but I thought it was funny.

Hullo I am back!!!

            Today was mighty fun! Lol I can’t really ‘member much about school kind of out of it all day except for the assembly… Greg of course had another dime... And being him... He has to put it down my shirt! Lol it was kind of funny though. Lol Johnny and Greg thought I was joining the international lesbian society... Lol. It’s really Thespian Society. Lol that was a funny reaction out of them. Green Waves was fun today. I’m really mad at myself though for not getting my pop and axel. But I keep practicing so I’m goanna get it soon! I got to watch football yet again!!! They were a LOT better this time. I met a new friend today Amy. Lol she’s so cute. (WATERBOTTLE!! It is filled with nutrients DON’T LOOK AT THEM!!! Lol) Then the players kept talking bout me… and calling my name at there water break Lol. Of course to get my attention. Oh well... I didn’t know any of them accept for Greg. So I still got to ask him what they said about me. Anyway, then I came home and had something to eat watched a bit of news, stretched a bit, then came up to write this thing. Lol that was my day.

            Once again I couldn’t concentrate. It was wired. I wish I could have. I was talking to Nicole about my journal entry in English. (I wrote about how many times I have gotten hurt and how I’m scared of people and don’t show it on the outside) Well it got me thinking. I am really really REALLY afraid of getting hurt even more. I have been hurt by 98% of my friends and 98%.5 percent of the guys that I have dated. That is throughout my life. Well I wish I could always be like well... Hey it’s no big deal. I say that on the outside but on the inside...  I want to just break down and cry. I don’t though. So if you are reading this... and you don’t think it is really big but I kind of do... Please take all this in to consideration. I do want to say sorry to Rocky (mostly) n Greg for getting kind of mad. Upset Sunday. I didn’t mean to it’s just something’s get to me. Greg... Sorry for not really hanging out with you.. we kind of both ditched each other. And Rocky, I’m sorry for getting upset and Olivia kind of jumpin’ down your thought. She does mean all the best. She just knows how much I’ve been hurt. Same with Kaity. They are my best friends and look out for me. Just like I do for them.  Anyways. I’m goanna stop rambling on and go because I am goanna go stretch some more then go run! So I will see you all lata!!!

~*~ Breezy ~*~

(10 cent or known at school “Dime Girl”)